Weekly Update – 19/11/2016

So first and foremost… yes. It is finished:

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If you click the above image it will take you to my latest horror story – just as requested. I would love to hear what people think of this one. It was inspired by a novel I wrote back in April for Camp NaNoWriMo and I would very much love to turn it into something bigger. Specifically a series of connected short stories.

I also released two chapters of Secrets and Skin this week, which you can find below:

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Or find it on Wattpad.

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Or find it on Wattpad.

As mentioned last week, I will be adding a chapter release per week for Secrets. Chapter 34 will be available this upcoming Tuesday. I would like for the novel to be available in its entirety by Christmas, or New Year’s at the latest so I can focus my attention on other projects. Don’t get me wrong, I love Secrets… but I’m eager to move on.

There probably won’t be too many short story or Ganymede releases over the next few weeks because I am incredibly busy, but I promise that there will be a preview for a new project with the end of Secrets.

Speaking of which… I better get back to writing. Have a good weekend everyone!

 

Weekly Update – 12/11/2016

Yep… so that date up there is a bit of a lie. Today is actually Sunday, November 13th but technically it’s an update for last week that should have come out yesterday and I’m a horrible person.

Alright, so this week has been a disaster – sick kid and personal health problems – so I am admittedly behind. Secrets and Skin is up to date though, so that’s something! You can find this week’s chapters here:

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Or read it on Wattpad.

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Or read it on Wattpad.

In case you didn’t notice, I did promise you a horror story this (aka last) week. I failed to meet that promise and I apologize. It is in the works and I’m kinda excited about it to be honest. In lieu of an actual story… I will tell you that it is based on a novel I wrote for Camp NaNoWriMo earlier this year and I am interested in turning it into more than just a one off. It’s very distinct from Host and I think it plays on a different type of fear. Which is to say… I really hope you guys like it. I swear to the elder gods that it will be out this week.

To make up for my tardiness I will tell you a secret. A secret about Secrets. That secret is this:

It is complete. I am still doing some edits but I can promise that it will be fully released by the new year. That means some bonus chapters will be coming out soon, so keep your eyes peeled for those.

Finally, I have the Amazon link for my collaboration with Paris artist Rita Guiducci: Winter’s Child. In case you missed it, Winter’s Child is a Christmas book aimed at children and adults alike. It is filled with stunning pastel and water colour illustrations.

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If you missed the Christmas in Paris event this weekend, you can still pick up the book from Amazon HERE.

Alright, that’s all from me for now. If you have any questions or feedback about anything, please feel free to leave me a comment below!

Weekly Update – 4/11/2016

So the results of the poll are in and it looks like Horror is the winning genre. That means I’ll have a brand new horror short story for you next week! I’m not sure about the exact day yet, but likely closer to the end of the week. I have been playing with a couple ideas for this one and I’m excited to see where they lead.

As for this week, we had two releases for Secrets and Skin as well as an episode release for Ganymede. You can read them below:

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Or read it on Wattpad.

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Or read it on Wattpad.

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Or read it on Wattpad.

Thanks again to those reading my work. If you enjoy what you’re reading or would like to give me some feedback (about my work, the site, anything) please feel free to leave me a comment. You can also leave a review on Web Fiction Guide.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

Hallowe’en Contest and What Next?

I have some exciting news today! In case you missed it, my short story Host was entered into a Hallowe’en Contest run by Wattpad’s Urban Fantasy Community. There were two awards to be won: The Reader’s Choice award (determined by votes) and the Ambassador’s Choice award (decided by the Wattpad Ambassadors heading the community). Thanks to everyone who voted, Host won the Reader’s Choice award! Now, this award was passed down the second place winner (Ghost Hotel by Amy Lance, which was fantastic by the way) because… Host also won the Ambassador’s Choice award!

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I’m so excited and, to thank you all for your support, I’m going to do a little something extra for next week. I want your input, so let me know what you’d like me to do in the poll below. (I’ll run a poll on Twitter too and combine the results). If you choose “Other” make sure you let me know your idea in the comments below! If you have any other feedback (about my writing, the site, or whatever) please feel free to let me know! I’d love to hear from you. ❤

 

Weekly Update – 28/10/2016

This has been an exciting week for me! A month or two ago I submitted Secrets and Skin to Web Fiction Guide – “a community-run listing of online fiction.” It was finally accepted on Monday and since then I have had a lot of new traffic. To all new readers – welcome! Thank you for checking out Secrets and Skin! To any other webfic authors reading my blog: I highly recommend Web Fiction Guide, just be patient during their submission process.

A few releases this week. Chapter 26 and 27 of Secrets of Skin are out. You can find them below:

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Or read it on Wattpad.

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Or read it on Wattpad.

A second installment of my iyashikei-inspired series is also out now. It’s been an interesting process writing these episodes and a great challenge. I have another on the go already so, while there is no strict release schedule for 53 Ganymede at this time, episode 3 should be released within the week. For now, you can check out episode 2 here:

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Or  read it on Wattpad.

On the Wattpad front, there are only a couple more days to vote for the winner of Urban-Fantasy’s Halloween Contest. You can read my entry by clicking here. Don’t forget to vote if you think it deserves to win.

Finally, a fellow Wattpad writer/ blogger wrote a very generous critique of my Wattpad short story collection – Everyday Dragons. (You can find all of the stories here in the Shorts section of my site.) I really appreciate the time they took reading my work and sharing their thoughts. You can check out the critique on MemoirOfTrash’s wordpress:

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If you want to let me know what you think of my work, please feel free to comment on any of my stories or here on the blog. You can also post reviews on Web Fiction Guide. I’d love to hear what you have to say.

I hope everyone has a safe and happy Halloween and for those doing NaNoWriMo this November – good luck! You’ve got this!

Imagine This.

I want you to imagine something for me:

Your skin feels numb. It’s hardly noticeable at first — the shower doesn’t feel too hot, you don’t need a sweater when everyone else does. Then it starts getting worse. You can’t really feel anything. There is pressure and some distant recognition of touch, but no real sensation.

Why?

You ask yourself this. As it worsens you begin to worry, anxiety building in the pit of your stomach.

Next, your muscles begin to seize. They clench, tightly, as if your body is trying to collapse on itself. Your heart races. Maybe because you’re scared. Maybe not.

Your appetite disappears. Or maybe it grows and all you can think about is food. You can’t sleep, dragging your rigid and exhausted body that refuses to rest. Or maybe all you can do is sleep, the difficulty of lifting your sick bones too overwhelming.

Your vision changes. Colours disappear until everything is in black, grey, and white. “Can’t you see the beautiful colours of the fall leaves?” “No.”

Pain radiates on the edges of your perception. Low and constant, sometimes flaring for no reason you can discern. The numbness fading only for the moments of pain.

You feel guilty. That dinner you were supposed to cook. That moment you were supposed to enjoy. All put on hold for something beyond your understanding. Did you do something to cause this? If you had exercised more… eaten better…

Eventually, you are paralyzed. Frozen in place. All you want to do is scream for help, for the pain to stop… but you can’t.

Frightened?

Now, I want you to imagine the same scenario but with some slight differences. It is not your skin that grows numb, but your emotions. Happiness is elusive. So is desire. Even sadness. The smiling face of your daughter, the person you know means everything in the world to you, elicits only the faintest blip of a feeling.

The result is the same. You ask yourself: Why? Then the anxiety. Guilt. Eating or not. Sleeping or not.

It is not colours you are blind to, but positivity. It is no longer in the spectrum of your emotional vision. No matter how long someone points at something and says “Can’t you see this happiness?” the true answer will still be, “No.”

And the paralysis. Not a physical one, but a mental one. Your decision-making processes shut down. Your communication comes to a halt. And here you are, wanting to scream for help, for the pain to stop… .

Is this any less frightening?

This is mental illness. To be specific, this is my mental illness, but there are many people who share the same or similar experiences. I’m lucky in that I have a vague notion of why this is happening. I know I am sick, I know this will pass and — most of the time — I know it’s not my fault. A lot of people don’t have this benefit. Maybe this is the first time they’ve experienced it. Maybe the people around them tell them mental illness is not a true “illness.” Maybe they have been experiencing it for years but still don’t understand – Why?

I know this is a writing blog, but one of my aims in writing is to break down stigmas surrounding mental illness. Secrets and Skin was a way to give a face to self-harm, to give those of us who never thought we could be heroes a chance. To talk about healing and relapse. I try to be candid about these issues.

Today, this is how I felt. I went for a walk. I meditated. I tried to look at all the beauty in my life, but I was blind to it. So I expressed it. Writing from the inside out to try to share my experience. For those who are going through it — so you don’t feel alone. For those who have never felt it — to help you understand.

Depression is not sadness. Anxiety is not negative thinking. Just because the pain and dysfunction are not physical, doesn’t mean they are any less overwhelming or in need of treatment (whether medical or therapeutic.) If a muscle becomes damaged, you move it and train it to a point of health. If a nerve becomes pinched, you have surgery or take medication to cope. This is no different.

Please, be supportive to those living this right now. Try to understand.

And if this was your day today too — you can do this. It will hurt. It will take time. But that’s okay, all healing does. You are not alone.

If you or a loved one are in need of immediate help, please see the following resources:

http://www.yourlifecounts.org/need-help/crisis-lines

 

Weekly Update – 21/10/2016

So what happened this week?

A new story came out yesterday, and with it an entire new option up there on the menu bar. In my last post I described the Iyashikei genre, mentioning that my husband had challenged me to write something with similar qualities. While writing this story I realized that it would not be complete in one installment. And so, I’ve accidentally started a new web serial.

The name of the series is 53 Ganymede. It follows Claire Brown — a young woman who finds herself moving to a big city and renting an apartment in a beautiful, if eccentric,Victorian house. Unlike Secrets and Skin, 53 Ganymede is episodic and not a serialized novel (think discrete tales instead of chapters). Like its inspiration, these stories are intended to be calming and immersive — a safe haven for those just looking to relax, meditate, or heal. The also have a touch of magic, mystery, and mischief… just to keep things interesting.

You can find the first episode below:

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Aside from this, Secrets and Skin Chapters 24 and 25 released Wednesday and today respectively. You can read them below:

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Or read it on Wattpad

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Or read it on Wattpad

Lastly, my short story Host is still up for an award on Wattpad and could use your votes! You can find it by clicking HERE.

If you don’t have Wattpad but would still like to read it, check out the link below:

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Thanks for all of your support!

Iyashikei and Worlds That Heal

Sometimes we need a break:

Curling up under the covers and watching a movie when we’re sick.

Reading a book in the bath with a glass of wine after a long day at work.

Listening to a podcast in the dark after an anxiety attack.

Binge-watching a favourite show with a carton of ice cream and a broken heart.

Whenever we find ourselves struggling to cope, fiction is a quick and accessible release from the chaos of our lives.

But my question to you is this: what type of fiction do you find relaxing? What stories do you seek out to warm your heart and heal your soul?

I certainly don’t expect anyone to have a single answer — personally, I crave different genres, aesthetics, or atmospheres depending on my mood. But there is one genre, something I discovered recently, that I know I can look to on the worst of days. When my depression and anxiety have left me more puddle than human. When I’m shaking with anger and hopelessness after sifting through my news feed. When I’m too raw to face even fictional conflict and injustice.

Iyashikei.

If you’re not an anime fan you’ve probably never heard this term before. TV Tropes defines Iyashikei as:

“a term used for anime and manga created with the specific purpose of having a healing or soothing effect on the audience. Works of this kind often involve alternative realities with little to no conflict, emphasizing nature and the little delights in life.”

Iyashikei includes titles such as: K!-On, Mushishi, Natsume’s Book of Friends, Aria, and Flying Witch.

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Mushishi is as beautiful as it is melancholic. It’s darker tone sets it apart from other Iyashikei titles.

If you’re not familiar with Iyashikei or anime, the best way I can explain it is like this: Imagine the most comfortable scenes in your favourite stories. The ones that make you feel warm. Safe. Maybe a little melancholic, but not unpleasantly so. The ones where nothing really happens, but you’re captivated anyway. To use Harry Potter as an example (since it’s so widely known), try to recall the moments when Harry, Hermione, and Ron weren’t in immediate danger. Remove the overarching antagonists and conflicts — Voldemort, the Dursleys, bloodline prejudices — leaving behind the warmth and charm of the wizarding world and its inhabitants.

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Playful moments like this help make up the plot of an Iyashikei narrative.

What I’m describing are typically low-key moments where the camaraderie, beauty, and fantasy draw you in and act as the motivating force of the scene. They are often intended to offer the viewer/reader reprieve in between moments of high-tension. Except, in Iyashikei, these moments constitute the entirety of the plot.

Overlapping with the slice-of-life genre, Iyashikei depicts brief moments in the cast’s lives. The focus is on the minutiae — the making of a meal, a small discovery, a minor conflict that you knew would be resolved all along. Sometimes these conflicts are enough to draw the reader/viewer in, or sometimes the story relies on the beauty of the scene (these are typically visual stories) and the fantastical nature of its setting. You aren’t torn through the story with suspense or drama, but rather float along comfortably, enjoying the scenery as you pass.

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Speaking of scenery… Iyashikei tales are often brimming with gorgeous artwork. (e.g. flying witch)

Until I discovered Iyashikei several months ago (while simultaneously watching Flying Witch and reading Natsume), I usually resorted to easy-reading/ young-adult fiction when I was struggling to cope. Reading fiction aimed at a younger audience, it was easier to avoid triggering material or anything that would exacerbate my anxiety. But at the end of the day, these books revolved around (usually violent) conflicts. There were still overly complicated and frustrating love triangles. My heart still pounded as I turned the pages desperate to know what was going to happen next. They were great stories, but not ideal for my needs at that time.

Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s important to read/watch content that challenges us on multiple levels, but sometimes we need an emotional break. In a world where bad news bombards us on all sides, it’s crucial we find a space where we can breathe and regroup.

Flying Witch, Natsume, Sweetness and Lightning… these stories give me peace. The experience isn’t quite the same as the escapist feeling that comes from more traditional fiction, but one nearer to meditation. An emphasis on natural beauty and tiny pleasures amplifies the peace that already exists in our own lives.

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Sweetness and Lightning may not fall entirely in the Iyashikei genre, but many of the aspects are there. Plus: FOOD!

I am certain many people find this genre boring. Even my husband and I, who both love Iyashikei, constantly question what we find appealing. We have had many in-depth discussions about how anime and manga with no tension or overarching conflict keep us coming back for more. And yet, they do.

We are still struggling to find a parallel in non-visual story-telling mediums and Western genres. (The closest I’ve discovered so far are some Charles De Lint stories.) And so, my husband challenged me. Can I write a short story that aims to heal, to be relaxing, and meditative? One without any meaningful, long-lasting conflict that still manages to be engrossing and engaging? Can this be done without the appeal of beautiful artwork? I don’t know, but I love a challenge!

(Quick update: That challenge ended up developing into a three season web fiction series called 53 Ganymede.)

So what do you think? Are you a fan of Iyashikei, or would you be interested in checking it out? Do you think it’s possible to have a story that is immersive without significant conflict or antagonists? What genres do you find relaxing? And have you ever encountered a story that you think is similar to Iyashikei that is not manga or anime?

I’d love to hear from you! Let me know in the comments below.

Weekly Update 15/09/16

Happy Saturday everyone!

So I’m going to start posting Weekly Updates with links to everything that is released each week along with any news or plans. These will usually take place on Fridays, but I took yesterday as a sick day. (Which is also why Secrets Chapter 23 came out a day late. Sorry.)

So what happened this week?

My short story Host released and is now entered in an unofficial Wattpad Halloween contest. If you happen to be on Wattpad, check it out. One of the contest awards is determined by number of votes so if you enjoy it, be sure to give it a vote!

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You can read Host on WordPress: HERE.

Or on Wattpad: HERE.

 

 

 

 

Two chapters of Secrets and Skin also released.

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You can read Chapter 22 on WordPress: HERE

Or on Wattpad: HERE

 

You can read Chapter 23 on WordPress: HERE

Or on Wattpad: HERE

 

The next chapter of Secrets will be released on Wednesday, October 19th.

Host – Halloween Short Story

So my latest short story is up now! This is an entry into a Wattpad contest. The theme is Halloween/scary stories about some kind of creature. The story – Host – can be found on the Shorts page, under Fantasy or you can click here. (I haven’t made a dedicated Horror section yet seeing as there’s only one story so far. There could be more in future though.)

If you enjoy the story, I would greatly appreciate if you hopped on over to Wattpad and gave it a vote. One of the contest winners will be decided by the number of votes received by each story. You can find the Wattpad version by clicking on the cover below:

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One final note – it is Thanksgiving here in Canada today and I would like to thank everyone who visits my blog and follows my work. Your support means so much to me and I am forever grateful. Hope you enjoy the new story, and maybe I’ll even have another horror one ready before Hallowe’en sneaks up on us.