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Some days
I give so much of my love away
that I forget to leave any
for myself.
Some days
I give so much of myself away
that I become a walking
human-shaped absence,
defined
only by the space
of where other people are not.
Some days
I have no one to give to
and in that freedom I expand
so far
that I lose
all
cohesiveness.
Some days
I cannot remember who I am
only all of the things I should do
and all of the things I have failed to do.
Some days
I make lists about myself
so that I cannot forget:
what I’ve done,
what I like,
what I want.
Some days
I look at those lists
and wonder
where that person went.
Some days
I am certain
that some crucial part of me
has died
taking with it:
memories
and dreams
and desires
and
and
and
Some days
I want to be struck by lightning —
not to die,
but on the off chance
that I might reanimate.
Or at least
feel that rush of electricity
down my spine.
Some days
I can pretend that I’m okay,
end this on a note about
hope.
Some days
I give so much of my love away
that I forget to leave any
for myself.
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my love,
we live
in a den full of thieves
each of us
pilfering and pinching,
one from the other,
back and forth
and around again
in a merry-go-round heist
our children
plucking the hours
from our pockets
and the sleep from our beds,
the heat from our meals
and our drinks
and our kisses —
not that it keeps us
from stealing them anyway
after all,
you and I
are just as guilty as they:
every breathing moment
an ill-gotten prize,
an impossible debt
we never intended to pay
our guilt
evidenced
in the tipping of toes
and whispers in the dark,
in quiet tears
and the protests
of little voices
every moment we call
ours
is one taken from
them
every second I claim
mine
means one less for
you
these very words
counted and hoarded,
concealed around a corner
while the authorities
call my name
they are written
with borrowed minutes,
a fleeting currency
that dissolves
before it can ever be
repaid
we live
in a den full of thieves,
my love,
and I fear
taking more
than I’ve
lost
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It seems to me
that there’s been some confusion
in the news, in the media
in the comments sections,
and around the family dinner table
about where to aim
the blame
for our every disappointment,
every perceived — and rarely felt —
economic threat,
every culturally-dictated fantasy
that failed to come to fruition.
It’s the immigrants, they say.
The welfare collectors.
The addicts.
The poor.
But I say:
You’re all too cowardly
to pick a fight you might lose.
Sure, you’ll land your blows.
You’ll leave bruises.
Pull out hair
already thin from worry,
and malnutrition,
from living a life you refuse to value
simply because it is not yours.
You’ll pick their bloodied pennies off the floor,
put them in your pockets,
and misjudge the weight
of that blood and copper
as wealth.
But you were born
in a human pyramid —
somewhere around the middle
maybe —
and you’re stomping on the heads
of the people holding you up.
Blaming them
for the weight
of the person sitting on your shoulders.
But that person took risks, you’ll say.
Worked hard to climb to the top.
To deserve
to withhold
the necessities of life
from those who do less.
Those who only–
sleep in the streets
in weather that gnaws at their bones,
because that’s all the hunger has spared.
Only–
weigh their life on the tip of a needle
against a pain
the world tells them doesn’t exist.
Only–
risk their safety
trading the scraps of their self-worth
for a few guilt-ridden dollars.
Only–
work triple shifts
skipping meals and doctor’s appointments
so their families don’t have to.
Only–
leave their violence-ridden homes
for a place that will hate and envy them
for their will to survive.
Only–
carry their children on their backs
over the corpses
of the ones they couldn’t save.
Only.
Only imagine the strength —
in those backs
and those shoulders
and those hearts
and those bones.
The power in those hands.
If you would only pull them up
high enough to reach
the very peak of that pyramid.
High enough to shake from those pockets
the blood and copper
we’ve been letting weigh
us
down for so long.
The second last episode of 53 Ganymede is out now! (Audio will be out later this weekend once I do some troubleshooting with Audacity. Sorry it’s late — I’m still making a lot of mistakes and learning as I go, so I appreciate everyone’s patience.)
Only one more episode left and, because my schedule for December is pretty hectic, I’m actually going to be releasing it two weeks early. This means the final episode of 53 Ganymede will be available on Friday, December 6th.
I can’t believe we’re already at the end. I hope everyone has been enjoying the series so far — don’t forget to leave a comment or, even better, a review over at Web Fiction Guide.
You can find the latest episode by clicking the image below.
Hi everyone! The mid-season finale of 53 Ganymede is out now — click the picture below to find it. This episode is a little longer and a little bit more *intense* than 53 Ganymede usually gets, but it ties up a lot of loose ends and I really hope everyone enjoys it.
Don’t forget to leave a comment to let me know what you think, or leave a review over on Web Fiction Guide. I’ll be back July 19th with episode 7. Thanks for reading!
The fifth episode of this season of 53 Ganymede is available now! (Click the image below to read.)
Next month we will be half way through the final season already! I have some big plans for episode 6 and I think you may find some of the answers that you’ve been looking for.
Don’t forget to review 53 Ganymede on Web Fiction Guide — reviews really help bring attention to the series — or share with your friends. You can also leave me a comment to let me know what you think!
To my fellow Canadians — have a great long weekend! To everyone else — have a great weekend, however long it may be. As always, thanks for reading!
Hey everyone! The fourth episode of this season of 53 Ganymede — Strange Day — is available now! (Click on the image below.)
I mention briefly in the author’s note at the end of the episode that I’m looking into creating a reference guide of sorts for the characters of Ganymede. This would just be a who’s who of the series including some little tidbits of information and, hopefully, some character art. I’m looking into art commissions now, but I don’t know if I’ll be able to get everyone done all at once. If there’s a character you’d love to see let me know in the comments!
Thanks for reading. Episode 5 will be out Friday, May 17th.
Episode 3 is out early! Check it out by clicking the image below!
